hold me fast

I decided it was time to get back in here...

 and to quit procrastinating

and simply create something,

anything will do really...

it was so easy to slip away from creating when 

I cut my finger way last june,

but come on - enough is enough - it is what it is...

it's been way too long creating for just me -

lots of paintings half done wait my attention to be brought to life.

I am constantly creating for my students

 and getting lots of paint time in that way,

but it's not the same.

 so I cleaned up the space -

we'll see how long that lasts...

 love this old mailbox which holds lots of my stash.

 do pencils and brushes and paint and art supplies

just make you weak in the knees?

 if so then you can understand my stash

and no place to store it all!

 I decided to tackle this collage/painting today.

It is cardboard with spackle and papers and stickers

done about 9 months ago - 

maybe it is time for birth...

voila,

 it ended up looking like this.

I call it  hold me fast

from Psalm 139.

it reminds me that God is holding me tightly

every day during this grief thing

(and I keep crying because 1/3 of my mom's ashes are arriving in the mail today -

hey she's coming for a visit - that makes me laugh at least)

 these buttons are from her button stash...

 and this pot looks like one she would have made...

and I just adore texture and could get lost in it.

maybe that's a good place for me to be right now.